At the tender age of twenty-eight I have an outstanding resume. (Or so I have been told). The various employers I had the opportunity to work under, made me realize one thing. I HATE working for other people. You know that moment, when it’s the end of your shift and you have the benefit of counting down your register, only to realize, you’ve made more money in one shift for your employer, than you make in one paycheck for the whole week… Ummm. Something’s not right. I would say my “inconsistencies” in my job placements tell a story that HR Representative’s always seemed to overlook. Clearly I wasn’t happy at McDonalds, I wasn’t valued enough for the work I did as a Medical Assistant, Working at a call center was never my calling, Being a Shift Supervisor at Dunkin Donuts left me with no free time, (someone was always calling out sick and I lacked the ability to say no). Bagging groceries at Hannaford was just not my thing, and Starbucks felt like a betrayal due to my unnerving loyalty to Dunkin Donuts and it kind of interfered with something I thought would be my lifelong career. (Turns out it was just another trial job). I’ve had the lovely pleasure of Waking up in the early mornings, Overnights left me sleep deprived, and afternoons just felt like my whole day was spent making money for someone else. Who never found it necessary to show his or her face and a simple thank you would have been the extra push I needed some days.
One thing for sure, I always fell in love with my dreams. You know the things that bring you the most joy? The very things you tell yourself you will work on after you get home from work, but by the time you get home, your hungry, tired and just want to take a hot shower and go to sleep. How many people do you know that have given up on their dreams, because they need to make money? The very thing you would love to do takes time, dedication, motivation, and A LOT of sacrifice. Unless you have the luxury of coming from luxury your dreams are most likely just dreams.
Job after job after job. and yet I still can’t find a place I can wake up to consecutively for five years or more and be happy. Although my dreams have stayed the same, the opportunities to work in the field I love just aren’t there. Or they are, but they are limited and require experience that I don’t have because you can’t get experience without someone willing to hire you on without experience. Orrrr… another annoying thing, you need a degree, which takes 2-4 years and school unfortunately doesn’t pay the bills. So a 2-4 year program will take about 4-8 years to complete, for someone like me the sole provider, and no financial help. I was not born into wealth, I was born into a system that purposely holds you back. (But that’s another topic).
Jobs today require a number of skills for a number of years that you could only get from job training. Back in History if you were a shoe polisher, you only polished shoes. Today they require you to know how t polish shoes, make the shoes, tie the shoe strings, and come up with a marketing strategy for selling the shoes, as well as work the register and count it down at the end of the day. The tasks were simple, the work was not hard, I mean if you had a talent you got paid for that talent. If you knew how to build toys you became a toy builder. If you knew how to plant flowers, you were a gardener. Today, technology has evolved so much that natural talent doesn’t just get you the job anymore. Anyone can do a worldwide “how to” web search and be given the instructions on how to. Along with video’s for our visual learner’s, not only step by step instruction, but you can physically watch how to produce a project/product from the comfort of your own home. For FREE!
Sometimes I wish I could go back in History and live in a different era. Where jobs were based on skill and natural talents, where rent was nowhere near $1,000, the cost of milk was 14 cents, and the cost of living matched the majority of wages. Technology was meant to make things easier. The easier things got the lazier people became, the greedier people were, and eventually just putting food on the table became intangible. People were ultimately looking for a way out and a quick extra buck, because you could no longer go to your boss and tell him or her that your family is struggling and they willingly give you a loaf of bread.
My My How Times Have Changed. Take Me Back, Tell Me Whose To Blame. Erase The Records, Rewrite The Scenes. Make Us Whole, Remove The Greed. For Thou Shall Sin To Make Ends Meet. Forgive Me, Forgive He. I Dream With Love, I Lose With Hate. Lust Is Wrong And So Is Greed.
xoxo ; Jay
i Love Working For
People i Hate Working
For Things
After 3 College
Degrees Happy
For Almost
Two Decades
Just Making
Folks Smiles
Handing out
Shoes Running
A Military Bowling
Center Yet the Last
5 Years
Of ‘Upward
Mobility’ of
Big Pay Behind
A Computer
Out Of 33 Years
Of Work
No Real
Humanity
No Colors
No Flavors of Life…
Eventually The Stress
Of That Almost Killed
Me Shut-in Ill With the
Worst Pain Known to
Humankind Type 2
Trigeminal Neuralgia
No Drug Would Touch From
Wake To Sleep like A Dentist
Drill In Right Eye And Ear For
66 Months
Then
At
53 Years
Old When
The Pain
Went Away
i Decided To Dance
Everywhere i Went
It only Took About
A Year Before i Was
Notified by the Audience
i Was both Famous And
Folk Legend By Passerby’s
Yelling
Legend
Out
Of Their Car Windows
Now in 14,177 Miles
And 88 Months
Of Public
Dance
The
Joy is No
Less Than
The First
Step
Without Pain
And That Legend
And Famous Business
Feels No Different
To Me
Than
Smiling
Eyes Exchanged
Serving Rental Shoes
To Hundred Of Customers
Every Week For Almost
20 Years Watching Families
Grow From Childhood Through
Adult
For You
See Behind
That Counter
Just Listening
To Everyone’s
Life Stories Without
Much Said Was Excellent
Preparation With Around
100,000 Or So Folks
To One
Day
Tell
Stories
Of My Very
Own No Fiction
Indeed Just A Life
Of Creating Smiles
And Emotionally
Supporting
Everyone
i Met/Meet As if
They Wear The only
Face Of God Eternally
Then And Now in The
Moment Forever No
Matter Who They
Were/Are As
i Am Doing
Now For You See
Young Woman Inspiring
To Be A Creative Writer
It is Not Who You
Touch Later
That Counts
Now Obviously
So that’s All i ever
Focus on As A Smile
Is The Only Real Reward
That Is Still For Giving
Thanks
Giving
Worth
Living
As A Human
Being Fully Breathing
And It’s True i Will Always
Have To Wear Shades To
Help Avoid That Pain
From Coming
Back
So
i
Had No
Choice Yet
Then To Turn
my Smiling Eyes
Into Words Now a
Collection Of Smiling
Eyes in Words Literally
8.8 Million Words
Long literally
Just a Copy
And Paste
Of Free Verse Poems
Just Like This Inspired
By Thousands
Of People
Like You
All Around The
Globe in 88 Months
Yet See It’s also An
Excellent Way To
Rest My
Feet
From The
Dance oh By
The Way i was
Born Autistic
And
Couldn’t
Speak Until
4 Yes i Figured
Out A Way to
Do It
Enough
To Earn
3 College
Degrees
And Well Enough through
A School Life Where
Peers told Me i Was
A Weak Ugly Boy
Who Stuttered
Who Looked
Like A Girl
Who Did
Not Deserve to
Exist They Called
Themselves Christians
They Threatened to
Beat me Up
Just Because
i Smiled All
The Time
And Was Happy
The only Jesus
i Met At Church
Or School Was
My Mother
My Sister
And My Dog
Yet You See i
Didn’t Become
A Villain Like
Trump And
Some of
His Followers
Those Same Bully
Boy Onward Christian
Soldier Marching Bully Boys
Who Crush
Cops
In Insurrections
To Destroy Democracies
While Shot on Fifth
Avenue Dying
Unmasked
Killing
Others
In Unmasked
Mobs In Walmart
Still after Those
66 Months
Of A Disease
Shut-in
That Disease
Is Literally
Assessed
Worse Than
The Torture Of
Crucifixion
More
Than Likely
You Were Raised
In A Christian Church
By The Color of Your
Skin not to Stereotype
Type Yet Your
Comment About
Lust Being Wrong
Is A Clue Oh
By the Way
As Science
Shows Lust Is
A Main Source
Of Creativity For Males
And Social Cooperation
Among
Females
To Prove They
Are The Most
Nurturing To
Attract Who They
Desire So Yes A Best Way
To Control And
Subjugate Others
Is To Make
Nature
Evil
And
Call Words
Idols of God
Abstract Concepts
Folks Create As Tools
To Slave The Nature
Of Other
Humans
For ‘Trump’
Purposes through
The Ages
Indeed
Anyway
If you’ve read
‘The Book’ There
Are Two Ways
Of John 14:12
Enduring
A Greater
Hell For 66
Months Versus
3 Days And Not
Giving Up And
Going
Away
And
Promising
You’ll Get The
Job of Heaven
On Earth
Done
Thousands
Of Years Later
Nope my
Mamma
Raised
A Responsible
Man Not Someone
Who Puts Something
Off For 2000 Years
While Folks
Like
Adolph
Hitler
And Trump
Bring Frowny
Unmasked Faces
To Destroy All Joy
OBTW at
60 And
243 Pounds of
Martial Arts And
Ballet Leg Pressing
Up To 1520 Pounds
All Naturally
This
Is What
You Have
To Do to
Gain
The Right
To Even Smile
And Hehe Public Dance
A Free Style Ballet
And Martial Arts
Dance
In Trump
Town
USA
the Moral
Of This True
Story Don’t
Wait
For
A Hero And
Always Save
Your Self
With
A Smile
For Others
See No Other
Human Face
Or Less
Than
A Grain
Of Sand
As Less
Than
God
Finally
Do Love
It’s All That
We Truly Exist
For All
That
Breathes God For
Real Write A True
Story Worth Breathing
Create a
Greater
Heaven
Out of Hell…
This is What Love
Does Just For Free
Love Needs No Likes
Shares or Follows
Love
Requires
No Worship
On Bended
Knee No
Fear Of Criticism
Love Stands Tall
As A Lion Walks
With Grace
And
Roars
If Anyone
Dare Take Freedom Away
God FlieS on Eagle’s Wings… 🦅
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